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Another sober day - 15 days sober now! Feeling not so ill today! Feels like I am really starting to get over this cold. Some fairly annoying aspects to my day at work but I'll get over it! Nearly at the end of the week now, just one more day of work to go. Looking forward to continuing with my to do list at the weekend (but also having a well earned rest!). Going to watch some SA recovery videos on youtube as part of today's recovery work.

Hope everyone has had a good day!

Jeff.

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Still feeling ill today, but another sober day and now 14 days since my last relapse. Hopefully I can really solidify an extended period of sobriety now. Toughed it through work and now need to get to bed asap. Like I was saying yesterday though - you can't take a day off from recovery so here I am doing this blog again. Also today - made some good plans for the long term future of my life. Going to read some more of the book I am reading on sexual addiction recovery as part of my 20 mins recovery work for the day now.
Good luck everyone for a sober day tomorrow!

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Feeling a bit de-energised and low today. Main thing is to not act out though which I haven't done and don't plan to!

I said I was going to keep a note of my OCD fixations as they are part of the discord that causes me to act out. Well at the moment my OCD fixation is that I recently spend too much money on some DVDs/movies. It doesn't make sense because I enjoyed watching them - but there you go. Certainly a better way to spend money compared to acting out.

As part of my recovery work today I am going to read some posts on forums with people who are trying to recover from sexual addiction, and watch some youtube videos on the topic.

I watched some really good material yesterday which said that the sex addict's life is like being in a motoboat with a hole in the bottom. If the boat is still the water starts filling up the boat which is a good image for all the chaos that can enter a sex addict's life if the addiction is not controlled. However, recovery work is the motor. You have to keep the motor on, keep the boat driving forward and whilst that is happening, and the boat is gliding across the water's surface, water will not come up through the hole. In fact, the water already in the boat will start to empty out. However, if you switch the motor off and the boat stops moving - you are back to the same problem.

Basically what this means is you can take a day off work. You can take a day off from a diet. You CANNOT take a day off from recovery. Anything less than 100% commitment. Anything less than doing 20 minutes of recovery work everyday without fail means that a relapse is on the way.

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Another sober day! Feeling a bit rough with a cold today, was in work today so that made it a little hard but got through. Read some posts on sexual addiction recovery forums as part of my daily recovery work.
Good luck to everyone fighting addiction, may you attain a sober day tomorrow!

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Sober again today. Worked hard at my to do list. Had a small bit of personal drama to deal with - nothing major or to really worry about but it's left me feeling a bit emotionally charged. As part of my recovery work today I'm going to do some sexual addiction recovery reading and listen to some related podcast material.